Girl, Bleeding (another poem by me)

originally posted on my personal blog, wildcharismaandwanderlust.wordpress.com

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Girl, Bleeding

She was a girl, alone.

She felt like finger nails scratched across a chalkboard

The ingratiating screech of a banshee

The quiet that befalls a public execution

As the prisoner takes the lone walk to his imposing beheading.

She’s shrouded in a wave of insecurity, anxiety, dread.

The one who chokes herself to sleep

To elude darts being thrown at her head

She’s a target, a weakling, a sniveling wreck

Susceptible to the images that flash behind her eyelids at night.

She saw blood once,

It was a peaceful sight.

She had just wrung her wrists

And thought, stabbing them would be fun.

She really liked the color red.

She broke her legs

On the double edged sword

Of bitter lies and daggered hurt.

It poisoned her soul;

A drop of black on a canvas of red.

She’d wondered whether it was possible

To walk in a straight line

When your mind is running in zig-zags.

If you could bludgeon yourself to death

With your raw, twisted ankles.

The girl peeled back her fingers from her clenched fist

To tear out her own eyeballs.

So that she could never again see

His body, laid to rest

Pale and still and gone.

Book Review: The Fault In Our Stars by John Green

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Title: The Fault In Our Stars

Author: John Green

Genre: Young Adult Literature, Romance, Tragedy

Published: January 10th, 2012

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Synopsis:

Despite the tumor-shrinking medical miracle that has bought her a few years, Hazel has never been anything but terminal, her final chapter inscribed upon diagnosis. But when a gorgeous plot twist named Augustus Waters suddenly appears at Cancer Kid Support Group, Hazel’s story is about to be completely rewritten.

My Thoughts:

My friends basically pushed me to read this book, because of ‘the feels’. So, I decided to read it before the movie comes out in June.

Hazel, I think, is the most admirable character I have ever read in YA book. She doesn’t have paranormal abilities, she’s not a badass kickass fantasy heroine, and she’s been dying of cancer all her life. Yet, she is the most real girl I have ever read. I loved her witty comments and statements riddled throughout the book from the beginning. I love how she doesn’t try to hide from the truth, how she accepted the truth. I love honest she is about her cancer and her condition and her impending death. She is also so empathetic with other people and their plights. She thinks of the people in her life. I really liked how she was so obsessed with An Imperial Affliction and its ending. She is such a fangirl, lol.

Augustus Waters was such a hero. I just want him to know that, no matter what he thought, he is the most heroic character I’ve ever read. He made sacrifices for the people he loved. Not big sacrifices. Just the little things, the ones that matter, the ones that count. Him and his metaphorical resonances! Gosh, I loved those. He was so awesome. And those big words he always used! He always sounded so intelligent. He and Hazel were such an intellectual couple. They were both so smart, and clever. I really admire that about them.

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There were actually a lot of metaphorical resonances and symbolism in this book. It’s so erudite.

I don’t want to get into any of the other characters, or stuff I specifically adored from TFIOS, because I don’t want to give any spoilers. One thing remains, though: Hazel’s mom is the best fictional mom in the whole wide world. And Peter Van Houten was the best plot twist ever.

I just want to say that this book was not at all what I expected. It was 10000000x better. I’ve never read a book that are me think so much in my life. It’s incredibly quotable and ponderable and awe-inspiring. And another thing: this book literally made me cry buckets. Remember, if you haven’t read it and you finally do, to keep a box of tissues ready.

Favorite Quotes:

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“My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations.”

“Some infinities are bigger than other infinities.”

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“There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There’s .1 and .12 and .112 and an infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or between 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. A writer we used to like taught us that. There are days, many of them, when I resent the size of my unbounded set. I want more numbers than I’m likely to get, and God, I want more numbers for Augustus Waters than he got. But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I’m grateful.”

“The marks humans leave are too often scars.”

9.5/10

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